STRESS.
Art : READ.
By Sakuan.
My name is Fatuma, and I have a lot on my mind right now, these are nothing but thoughts, take them however you wish, I warned you. I am not here to please you, why would anyone ever get mad at me for my words, am I that powerful, why would you make me that powerful? I don’t like bullies either and I love it when people stand up for themselves, that is the whole point of life, protect what is yours at all costs, at least that is what I subscribe to. Remember these are nothing but my thoughts, you’ve been warned.
Here goes nothing:
STRESS.
Sometimes your mind goes to dark places, places you’d never wish on your worst enemy. This place triggers something in you, be careful with it because it can build or destroy you depending on how you use it, I’ve experienced it.
Sometimes this place is so dark that you don’t know what to do and even if you did, you get so scared to do it, but there are times when you get so eager to do it, that you risk your whole life for something so small and unworthy of your care. A crazy person inside your head gives you all these brave and/or stupid ideas, ideas that would put you to shame, ideas that can ruin lives, ideas that no sane person can ever act on. Some of us act on these ideas, at first people look at you as crazy but then if the idea works you are a genius, some ideas are acted upon based on anger, and these we should be careful of, sometimes we act in the heat of the moment, at this point your rational thinking is nowhere to be found and you don’t think of the consequences that might come from your actions. This brings along this nasty thing called regret, regret is one interesting subject. Of every story I’ve heard from people with regret, most times than not they always wish they could go back in time and do something different other than what they did, sometimes with their lives, hoping for a better outcome, that right there is what I have a gripe with, the assumption that if they did something different the outcome will always be better than what it is now. Why do most people have this thought that if they were given a chance to go back in time and pick a different choice at some point in their lives that all of a sudden their lives will be better or the outcome wouldn’t be as bad as it is right now, it is in our human nature to think that way, regret is one of the worst punishments within oneself.
My point being, there are always two sides to a story, is it just a human thing to go through this feeling of self-hate because of something we think we have control over? Is it HOPE that we seek when we are faced with regret? (Maybe my life will be much better if I didn’t pick this path) Has to be, for me regret doesn’t really come that easy because I forced myself to understand that the other outcome that I think would’ve happened if I was to go back and pick a different path doesn’t exist, it’s only real in my head, the real thing, the reality already happened and the outcome is already written in the history books. And as we all know, nothing ever turns out as you think it would, the outcome might be what you thought but it isn’t quite exactly as you thought it would be, and even that for most human minds isn’t quite enough.
IN THE NAME OF SCIENCE.
The new religion as I call it, SCIENCE…
Today the term Science is being used as a buzzword by many, and it is sad to see, I can’t be the only one who sees or feels this way.
Just like religion back in the day, there are a lot of things today that go by unquestioned in people’s eyes, all in the name of science. This got me puzzled and wondering, we are all still human, science is the best and biggest thing we got since religion, science is the only way we can explain most of the previously unexplained things. This is not the only thing, the emergence and popularity of science killed religion for many. With this happening, more and more people are seeking their identities through science, religion used to be the home for that, but science is a new home for many, and that only leads to the manipulation (both literally and figuratively) of science itself by some “experts” for personal gain just like religion is still widely used. In science, people find a place to belong, where people flock to there is always going to be a predator somewhere in the midst of all that. With science having this much power, am I naive to believe that some board-certified scientists take advantage of this and sway a lot of people to take their ideology in the name of science even though it might not be entirely true, but a lie hidden somewhere in that scientific truth? That’s my concern when people hear an explanation from someone and at the end of it are the words, “and it’s backed by science.” All of a sudden we let our guards down and the questioning of the subject escapes the minds of most people. To make the matters worse, add the word statistics to that and now you’ve got them in the palm of your hands, the way the regular person interprets statistics is rather interesting. I don’t think statistics are always accurate but that is the best thing we have today and until we discover something better that should suffice us.
The fact that I, a non-scientist, just a civilian has seen two scientists talk about the same thing in two different lights and come up with completely two different results is quite puzzling especially when you find out that these two scientists are board certified. Both scientists with audiences of their own, both of them talking on the same issue but teaching two completely different things. Does that remind you of something? Maybe religion?
They say cherish the time you have here before it’s all gone, but what is there to cherish when you don’t feel like you belong, what is there to cherish when nothing goes your way? They say treat everyone like you would like to be treated, what if I have self-hate, and all I want is to be treated like the person I think I am, trash, then what? Should I treat people like trash because that is how I think I should be treated? The assumption that everyone loves themselves and treats themselves with respect is interesting because some people disrespect themselves all the time without realizing the fact. What makes a woman sell her body for money, how can someone be proud of that? Is it all done in the name of money? I wonder, I am a woman and that has never crossed my mind, it feels dirty to me, it feels wrong to me, how do you enjoy the money afterward? Is it by buying luxurious things for yourself? Risking the life and the sanity of your future self, how can that be fulfilling to anyone? Are there people out there who do that for the love of it and not for money? If it is all about money then what does that say about us, selling the most precious thing on earth for some change, out of everything you could do in life to get money why result to that, can someone please explain that to me?
A friend once asked me if it was a good idea to sell their body, I could have told her “sure, you do what you want, it is your body your choice.” But no, I care about her too much to tell her something like that, when I give advice to anybody. I asked myself, “if that was my daughter asking me that question what would I tell her?”…
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