Sodium.
Art : Sodium.
By Sakuan.
When at first you try and don’t succeed, what makes you keep going, what makes you the person you are today, the person who doesn’t give up, do you see the faces of those that you love that help you move on? I have been stuck in such places before and let me tell you something, it is a hard place to get out of when you don’t know what to do when the path forward is blocked by something and you can’t quite put the finger on as to why that is happening, that has always been something that I have battled with and it is not like you can just get over it, or figure something overnight on how to end it. It is something that you live with, something that you have to contend with, or else you will be chewed alive by the darkness. I try my best to stay in my lane. Still, sometimes it doesn’t make sense to do so, sometimes it doesn’t work to stay in your lane, sometimes you have to move in other people’s lanes to get what you want, and the things you have to do, sometimes they are things that you can come back from. Sometimes you would rather not talk about what you just did, or what you felt like you had to do, but what makes you right? Is it all about surviving? Is survival of the fittest a thing that we have to do all the time? Do we have to go through this all the time? The amount of people who tell me that it will all be alright is staggering, deep down I know it will all be fine and I know they are right but there is something holding me back, something telling me otherwise and I can’t ignore these voices because they demand to be heard, shutting them down is not an option…
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