WAR.
Art : WAR a WAY to PEACE.
By Sakuan.
Name is Ted, I have lived this life of mine fearing what this life of mine could be. I have found myself worrying more that I have lived and it is something I always wanted to control but never found a way to do so, trust me when I tell you this, I know of things that could be that aren’t and that makes me sad and I also know of things that shouldn’t have been but are…
I wonder what war does to a person, I wonder the feelings one gets from the state of knowing you have to go to war to actually being in it and having to defend what you think you have to whether willingly or unwillingly. I have never been to war but I have had a glimpse of what it can do because I once lived in a country at a time when war was prevalent and let me tell you it is something to behold. It is a weird thing because during a war, people somehow convince themselves that it is either them or us and they are absolutely right about that, I just wonder if all of that could have been somehow avoided. There are a lot of lives that are affected by war and I have to say that it isn’t pleasant at all, the tears shed by the mothers and children are heartbreaking. People lose their lives, people die everywhere and it happens so much that you wonder to yourself whether life means anything.
I wonder how war affects the mind of a kid who wants nothing more than to live and enjoy their little life, I wonder what you have to do to keep up with it. When you are asleep and dream of a peaceful world just to wake up to the sounds of guns and bombs, you are reminded what state you are currently in, how crazy is that? I know how stressful that can be, especially when you are a child, one day you see your brother and the next your mother tells you that he is never coming back home and now you have to live with that for the rest of your life, it might seem like a long one when you are a child but soon you realize a hundred years goes by so fast. As a child how does one process that type of information, I wonder, how are you okay living with someone for so long just to realize you are probably never going to see them ever again, this is such a sad thing to even imagine, the pain cuts deep, deeper than I would like. I can only imagine what that does to a person, how it affects their mentality growing up, and how it contributes to the trauma that they now have to call life. I can only imagine the pain that goes through someone’s head when hope is not a factor at all.
All we have is hope, that is the thing that keeps us going, taking that away is only going to make matters worse, taking that away from anyone either it be a child or an adult, it is such a cruel thing to do. You don’t realize how much you need it until it is gone or it is nowhere to be seen. I still have mine intact and it might all seem like it is all smiles here but sometimes it gets so tough that sleep doesn’t bless your eyes, and at times your legs don’t want to take you anywhere, you find yourself lying in a bed full of worry and wishes of how your life should be and could be if the world didn’t hate you. It is all competition, we all want what the next person wants, we all want what we can’t have at times, and we all think we are better than what we really are. All it takes is a second of a mistake to crumble everything you have worked so hard for, now that is a feeling you never want to have. Trust me when I tell you this, life is something to behold and it is going to come at you hard whether you like it or not.
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