Proud.
I think I am proud of what I have done with my life, I have lived a fulfilling life so far, there have been challenges that have come my way but I did not let them get the better side of me, I say that because I am still alive, I still find a reason to live, I have dreams, I have ambitions and most importantly I have hope. Hope is all you can ask for at any moment in time, I take care of myself, I take care of everything I think is important in my life, and I try to be my best anytime I can, of course, there are setbacks, it is life we are talking about here after all. I have failed in the past and that doesn’t feel good at all, I have succeeded too without the satisfaction I expected to have meaning I wasn’t fulfilled with the outcome the way I thought I would be, maybe it is true that nothing is ever the way it seemed it would be. Failure or success in whatever I have done so far, I am still proud of myself for I tied, I am still trying. I still see the profit of getting out of your comfort zone, it is looked at as a good thing but u think that is because people only look at the bright side when talking about things like that, well the reality is there are times that getting out of your comfort zone backfires and reminds you that there was a reason you were in your comfort zone, this has happened before, I think the upsides are greater than the downsides, I guess that makes it okay? Do you still try even though life didn’t go the way you thought it would, if yes why do you do it? Do you do it for yourself or do you do it for someone else? No answer is wrong, it is healthy to pick up a meaningful responsibility I think. My life has had ups and downs, but I am still here and that is the most important thing that one can say, I am still here…
Proud.
Currently reading [Women by Charles Bukowski]