THE DAY IS NEAR.
Art : Expose.
By Sakuan.
The name is Rayne. Today I want to touch deep where no one has ever offered me, you’ll see once I start at it. I came to this conclusion after seeing what my life has come to, after seeing what other people go through, especially those who are way older than me, I’m talking twice my age or even older than that. These are nothing but a young man’s thoughts, don’t judge me for these thoughts, I would rather you embrace me for trying to figure out the truth, not MY truth but the general truth of life. Judge me for my actions, my thoughts are just my thoughts, nothing more nothing less.
Here goes nothing.
I am twenty-six and about to be twenty-seven in a month or two, who would have thought, poor me hit a quarter of a century and still counting. Figuring life out has been such an interesting experience so far. Expectation is one of the things I find fascinating, why is there an expectation for someone like me to have life all figured out by now? Why can’t I exist in a world where it is okay to be “happy” the way you want to be “happy.” Happy is a weird one because people use it in all different types of ways, one can be happy doing what they love, one can be happy getting what they want, one can be happy when they get their first child, one can be happy when their enemy falls, all these types of “happy” exist in different ways but there is only one word to describe them, “happy.”
Society’s pressures don’t get to me when it comes to getting my life all figured out at this young age and I am lucky for that mindset, not everybody gets to have the mentality or the wisdom I have when it comes to this issue. I am this way because I don’t involve myself with society itself as much as someone my age would have, should have? Even when I do try to involve myself it never is as defined and clear-cut as some people have it.
I was always a person who liked to keep it to himself, since I was a child that has always been what I was comfortable with. I see people who are fifty years old, sixty years old still trying to start a business, still trying to pull a few strings to make it work, to make something work, anything, and that gives me hope because at twenty-six I know I don’t need to have everything figured out. They are twice my age and still trying to make it, I have an advantage here, I can make things work, and I am lucky enough to know what I want to do with my life. If I start now by the time I’m their age maybe my life would be in a better place than it is right now, maybe I will be successful in my endeavors or maybe I won’t, there is only one way to find out and that is to try, as I am writing this that is what I am doing, I’m in the process of trying, or as the young folks say today, I am grinding, night in night out, putting in the work, of course, some people get success faster than others, some people might get luckier than others but at the end of the day, we all have to remember that it doesn’t kill to try.
There you have it a cent or two, take it or leave it.
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