…THAT COMES TO MIND.
Art : FUZZY
By Sakuan.
These are the rumblings of a mad man, these are the thoughts of a man they once called the Cloud Bearer, that is me if you didn’t catch on earlier, I say this because there are people who have judged me for the things I do, and I do not blame them, sometimes I let my thoughts get the better of me without a challenge and that is something that nobody should ever give into, at the end of the day we are all human and that is where we are most vulnerable at, our thoughts. So please don’t judge me for these thoughts but for my actions.
I like to like, I like what I like, don’t judge me for it or I will do something that is unthinkable, that is not a threat that is just what comes to mind. I’ve made big sacrifices to be here, only I can understand what it took. I have done things I am not proud of, but let us not dwell on that because I have also done things that I am proud of and at the end of the day all that matters is the fact that I am proud of the good things that I have done, things that have proven to be good for other and most importantly, things that are good for me.
Some people wish they had your life, that is nothing but normal, there is just one problem they only want certain parts of your life. Here is the kicker, you can’t pick and choose what happens to you in life, if you wish you had my life then you’ll have to take it all and not some parts of it, that is not how life works.
You can always try to be better, you can always pick the more favorable path, at the end of the day the things you want are not guaranteed and that is something I came to learn the hard way, my story is beautiful, but to get to the rose you have to accept the fact that it is guided by thorns and you have to go through the thorns to get to the rose. The people around me encourage me to be the best person I can be for them and most importantly for myself, I try my best to do that and so far I love what I see, I love what I have become. I have made sacrifices that have changed my life for the better, at least that is what I think. I have been to places that aren’t desirable, places that could kill a man if he were not strong, both emotionally and physically. I love the feeling of getting what I want but I always measure the cost. I always ask myself if the end justifies the means, most of the time the answer is yes, because I calculate what I do before I do it with proper care, and my advice to people out there is that they should do the same thing.
I don’t know if I make sense with these rumblings, but I hope I do, I hope I become the person that people would wish to be, in a good way. I hope to be a good person to others, I hope I find honest people to share my life with, betrayal hurts so I hope I don’t get a lot of those. I love writing.
Oh and my name is Peter, and I still don’t know why people call the Cloud Bearer, I guess I’ll have to accept it and move on. Those were my thoughts, they are not perfect but they are mine and I am somewhat proud of that.
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