Deliver Me.

Art : Deliver me.

By Sakuan.

Forgive me for I have sinned, forgive me for I have done things that I regret, forgive me for I am not perfect, look into my eyes while these tears fall from my soul’s window. I take everything into precaution but I still didn’t manage to become the man you wanted me to be. What else can I do? I have tried everything in my power to manifest this positive energy that you keep on telling me about, but nothing has gone my way and today I ask you, was it all worth it? All the time I spent trying to chase this “pure” version of myself, was it worth it?

Forgive me for I have sinned, I never took a husband and now I am old and lonely, I never thought this would happen to me, why was I deceived by my society? They told me I was strong and I should strive to be independent, I took that to mean something different, can you blame me? My friends at the time are either married with families or dead today. No one comes to my parties, no one pays me no mind, I have no children of my own, and I have things that I always wanted to do but never did. Loneliness is a stupid thing, I need to be around someone, what do I do now, I am alone every day of the week, what I would do for a human touch…

Forgive me for I have sinned, I always wanted to become special, I always wanted to become someone that people cared about, I always wanted to exist in a society where I was appreciated and I wasn’t and now I sit here with my own thoughts still wondering why my life is the way it is. I cried out for help but nobody ever listened to me, I cried my eyes out for help but no one ever listened to me, why am I still here, who still wants me, it feels like I have gone through hell and back on my own. I can’t open up to anyone, a curse has befallen me, and that is what it feels like, a curse from the devil HIMSELF.

BY Nu Nazareth.